A lot of people have made it through. Depression comes with failures and triumphs. Depression just doesn’t go away after a sudden cure. Like a drug addict, there are relapses. And that’s ok. Just as long as you don’t indulge in the relapse and help yourself get help. As long as you are willing to work through it, you will be ok! There are times that we just don’t feel like it, and that’s the depression talking. Sometimes we have to force ourselves to get up off that couch or bed or whatever it is that we’re toss upon. Sometimes we have to force ourselves to get help. But as long as you’re forcing yourself, you’re getting better.
A great tool I have found is the Anxiety and Depression Workbook for Dummies. It’s only 20 dollars, an easy read, and gets you thinking about what triggers anxiety and depression (If I get an anxiety trigger, it triggers my depression). When you’re having a bad day and you go through that book, it takes you out of that funk for even just a moment to write down what’s going on that day. Chapter four has a great schedule that lets you write down thoughts that went on, what triggered it, and what your body signals were (tight chest, fatigue, bad posture).
I suggest that you invest in that book if you don’t have the money to invest in a therapist (or use it along side seeing a therapist).